The ABJDs are gone! *Gasp!*

Take a look at my wishlist of material goods. You’ll spot a very distinctive reduction in numbers, reason being that the 5 or 6 dolls that took up a great portion of the list is gone! All because of some very thorough thinking and hard reasoning with a couple of my friends, together with my exposure with these beautiful creations I finally woke up from that far-fetched dream of owning my own dolls.

I have a friend who happily lets me see her dolls and take really amatuerish photographs of them whenever a Canon EOS 450D is around. Everytime she says something about the expressions and feelings of the dolls, I just nod along and attempt to discern them from the otherwise lifeless pieces of sculpted resin. In my exposure to such dolls, there has only been one time which I really got to know what doll owners meant by their dolls having a spirit within them, thanks to Lyrios and my talk of yaoi… Other than that, the dolls just don’t seem much different most of the time.

Will you be able to see them once you’ve gotten yourself spiritually attached to it? Another friend of mine has such an attachment to his lady guitar, and with no hands-on experience in what they describe, I cannot put down their claims to be false. I can only keep mum, and I’m not saying I don’t believe it at all either. I just feel, perhaps my time has yet to come…

So gone are the dolls, totalling up to a few nice grands (in euros). Oh, what I can do with all that money… *fantasizes* Hence, the number of expensive hobbies I have has dropped to 3, although I’m still considering the feasibility of one of them…

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On a side note, thanks Kai, for the Distress and Coma ~Auditory Impression~ single. My gratitude to you, dude.

Random post on some random thoughts

Yeah, my birthday has arrived. I’m 16. Now I’m allowed to watch all ‘em NC-16 movies, so long as my mom returns me my NRIC.

I dunno why, but surprisingly, I actually received birthday presents last year. It’s my first, hence the fuss. Being a loner does not make you remembered by your classmates on whose birthday is it today. Plus I don’t remember my parents giving me any presents. My sister is another matter all together. But everything about the giving of gifts started last year, yeap.

First there was my classmates. Wow, what a shock I got (though actually quite mild. I was keeping a cool facade while my insides churned with amazement.) when a couple of them suddenly gave me something for my birthday. Touched? Of course, who wouldn’t. I’m not cold-hearted…

Then there was… the one who gave me guitar picks last year. Yeah, yeah, I obliterated your name cos there are others who are reading this post as well, so… *looks away and prepares to flee, just in case* well, I didn’t expect something from him either. Caught me off guard while we were at Vivocity. I’m correct, right? The picks were my birthday presents, right? Correct me if I’m wrong.

Then my sister. Ah… she has a job and an income, so she somehow became generous or what and asked me what I want as a birthday present. Being a total GE hardcore gamer, I just blurted “GVCs! (Game value cards) 60k!” “Yeah, yeah, fine…” And soon, there it was, 60k G-points for me to spend. This year it’s Artemis Fowl and the Time Paradox. Still hadn’t finished it though, cos I’m reading Paolini’s Brisingr at the same time. Plus another 4 more books from the library, and my Mid-years are about to start full-swing, hoo boy…

This year, I don’t really expect a lot. The only thing that may interest me (currently) could be the prospect of eating cake. I do that every year, and even hope to bake one once in the June holidays. Just for the heck of it. On a final note to end of this really silly post, I don’t look forward to the presents that might come with the occasion, so if you’re having a headache on what to get, you can forget it. Even a simple “Happy Birthday Bya/Chang Lin/Thall(wo)mann!” is enough to lift my spirits. It did so when I was Sec 2 *smiles*.

Cheerio!

A new style to colour in the eyes

It’s time to draw a new banner. And I recently learnt how to achieve this effect in eyes.

trial - eye

3 layers and a whole load of hassle. But it looks pretty. Haha. And this is my 2nd try.

And try putting it into a real piece of digital art will look something like this:

i just wanted the eyes...

Sorry for the lack of touch ups in the above piece.

While working on it, my sister peered over my shoulder and promptly shouted, “OMG A NAKED MAN.” *scrolls down* “Oh, half-naked man.”

*Rolls eyes*

Sketchy, ain’t it? And I figured, loads of the stuff I post here are really not up to standards. Hopefully this will compensate for it.

Regarding prom, the fever has gone down; I’m left with the prototypes and half-finished drafts of the dresses. Hmm, they may only be back in the june holidays? No promises though…

ADD: Completed this a long time ago. If the colouring gets to you, I’m very sorry.

Ruki - face-palming?

click to see the full size. *flees*

Prom Night 2009

Heck, I dunno why this is here in the first place.

Yes, Prom. That day of the year many look forward to after their O Levels… It’s down on me and the rest of the graduation cohort of 2009! Give you all a brief summary of it?

Details are already finalised by the Student Council’s Prom Night Comittee, so what I have up here is true, unless unfortunate circumstances call for adjustments in them.

Date: 16th November 2009 (Monday)
Time: 1830 – 2200
Venue: Rasa Sentosa Resort
Theme: Simply Elegant

I’ll have you all know that many chose ‘elegant’ as a theme. Personally, I called for ‘Victorian’ (like duh). The Comittee requested that the males are required to carry a single stalk of rose on that day, and they are to offer it to anyone they wish, be it a fellow classmate/schoolmate, a teacher, their lover or secret admirer. Likewise, the females are supposed to complement the gentlemen by having an indication of the flower on their attire or accessories. Therefore, look out for the abundance of this much-loved flower in my upcoming designs.

Yes, designs. I’m not buying a prom dress. And yes, you read ‘dress’. I am going to wear a dress for prom. And I’m going to have all my classmates swear that they will not leak out prom night photos.

Back to ‘designs’. Since I don’t want to spend godly amounts of money on a single dress in shops, hopefully by bringing them to a tailor I can cut the cost by a little. Plus, I can be as creative as I want, only limitation being whether or not my tailor can achieve in making it real. So… with some chiding here’s the first set of designs. I call them ‘prototypes’, dunno why.

1st set

Oh, they seem to all depict a lady in slightly long hair that reaches the shoulders. I think I’m going to leave my hair long too.

[digital/traditional art] tsukiumi

Because I just felt like doing this picture great honour ever since it was drawn on lined paper. I did colour this, but due to some complications with the burn tool, her face turned out ruined at the end. So, after I found out that I could get this effect by some tweaking, I hastily snapped a screenie and had it up in no time. So here she is, glorified as she should be.

And no, it was not posted cos someone used to like her so much, I dunno about now, but THAT is definitely not the reason. It was all just a whim and an excuse to spend more time with tabby.

Tsukiumi, once again.

[digital art] Granado Espada’s Male Musketeer

Haha, finally, after almost a month since I bought my tablet, I’ve finally comepleted this. Of course it didn;t take me nearly 3 weeks just to draw and colour this. It took me this long as I had to get used to the dodge/burn tool and learn how to make that watermark in the background. Thus.

Without any further ado, here’s the drawing!

The male Musketeer (lord knows what costume/armour he's wearing)

Click the image to see the picture in the original size, roughly 1k across, 7XX down. You have been warned. Or simply head here to see it in my dA acc. You don’t need to be a member to see the art piece or my profile.

the GazettE – DISTRESS and COMA

Their brand new single of 2009, released on 25th March 2009. I will definitely recommend all to watch this PV. Even if you can’t make heads or tails of the PV (like me… but I am able to decipher a little from it) or have never heard of this JRock band, watch it. It’s worth your 5 minutes and 28 seconds.

Watch the video in HQ version. It will take longer to load, but the quality is much better than watching it normally.

Purchase the single to support the GazettE! Singaporeans can make a trip to either outlets of HMV and check the shelves or order from the M.A.G.E. shop by giving them your order for ‘DISTRESS and COMA -Auditory Impression-’ or ‘DISTRESS and COMA -Optical Impression-’ from CD Japan. Global readers can just order straight from CD Japan.

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The lyrics below are taken from yet another link. Credits to the people who provided the kanji lyrics and english tranlsations.

Until your distress sleeps,
Fill me up with your grief.
Until your distress sleeps… [x2]

Hello, dear; my bride
何を見ているの
床に散った　蝶も拾えぬその目で
Hello, dear; my bride
What are you looking at?
You can’t pick up the butterfly that fell to the ground with those eyes.

忘れたいのは　白すぎた苦痛
信じてると　言い聞かす
傷は消えない
What I want to forget, the pure white agony…
If I believe,
The wounds I’ve substained won’t heal.

踊る　踊る　眠らせてと踊る
止まぬ涙
声を殺し　弱く震える手に　唇を落とす
Dance, dance, I let you sleep and dance
The tears won’t stop.
Kill your voice, and with those hand that quiver weakly,
Clean your lips.

Hello, dear; my bride
足元を焼く
耳鳴りにもう　近づく必要など
無意識に吐いた　息が肌を沿う
寡黙揺らす刃に　笑みを
Hello, dear; my bride
Your feet are burning.
The buzzing in your ears is becoming a need
Your breaths of unconsciousness
Runs along my skin
The smile in the blade that swings silently.

忘れたいのは　白すぎた苦痛
信じてると　言い聞かす　
傷は消えない
The thing I want to forget, the pure white agony…
If I believe,
The wounds I’ve substained won’t heal.

痩せた夢に　冷めぬ今が写る
悲しみさえ　素顔だよと　答えてくれるなら
傷ついてもいい
In the barren dreams,
The reality that does not wake up reflects the present.
Even the grief…If it answers me with a real face,
It’s okay if I get hurt…

忘れないで
痛みを知る　貴方に惹かれた鼓動
ここで
Don’t forget;
The throbbing is attracted to you, who knows pain,
I wait here…

「おやすみ」
“Goodnight.”

踊る　踊る　眠れるまで踊る
止まぬ涙
何もないと　心を伏せる度　枯れそうだと
痩せた夢に　もう一度を歌う
悲しみさえ　自分だよと　答えてくれるなら　
傷ついてもいい
Dance, dance, dance until I can fall asleep.
The tears do not stop.
If there is nothing, then the time that closes the heart
Will wither away.
In the barren dreams, I sing once more;
Even the grief…if it answers me with myself,
It’s okay if I get hurt…

Until your distress sleeps,
Fill me up with your grief.
Until your distress sleeps…

終わるはずの夢に「さよなら」が咲いてる
In the dream that should end, “Goodbye” is blooming…

The lyrics were taken from: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_mymLkeFkAY

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The links to download the PV and mp3 file (taken from: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IGd6o7kyCog)

mp3 || mp4 || AVI

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Now, it’s just so tempting for me to buy the single… The lyrics somehow ring something in my heart, long before I read the lyrics (which were in fact just a little earlier, as the copy I have posted is the 1st set I’ve read). So, for me, it now hurts to hear the song. Grief. I think I’ve felt that earlier in March, but to say it out loud will be repeating what I’ve so hated myself for doing on a blog so I’ll stop. Well, enjoy the PV of ‘DISTRESS and COMA’!

Updates

 

So, I just returned from Gopeng, Malaysia yesterday and with my tired body and sunburnt skin I sat down in front of my sister’s laptop to type this post and upload a new piece of digital art I just finished.

A 10 hour ride from Singapore to Gopeng… My bum hurts and if without my mp3 player or Stephen Hunter’s “Point of Impact” I would have died of boredom on the bus… Scratching the bug kisses makes my skin tingle. Gosh I hate sunburns, but they give this really beautiful and healthy skin colour! Now I’m dark again.

I’ll summarise my trip: Fun, adventurous, eye-opener, tiring, first-timers.

Haha… Highlight of the camp is white water rafting! Man~ going through 22 rapids in a raft is so exciting I want to do it again! And I have no idea how to share my experience on the raft to anyone… it’s just indescribable in words…

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Take a look at my “Wishlist of material goods” and you’ll see that 2 items have been struck off. Heh, I’m a happier girl now cos I have a scanner (Epson TX100) and a tablet (Wacom Bamboo Fun Medium in black) at home now!

The box

small flap

contents

Yeah… so this piece of work is my latest. Amongst all those which I drew using the tablet, this one isn’t that bad. Mature content ahead.

 

A girl under the sun, presumably on the beach

 Click on the image to see the art in my DeviantArt in full size. You can comment in there if you’re a member.

Digital Art – Otoko

A man’s side profile (diminished)

A side profile. Worked with Adobe Illustrator CS4. I’m just too lazy to add the other pics…

Essay on Guren

Yeah, Guren. That song released early last year by the GazettE. I did an essay on it, as a replacement essay I was supposed to have handed in on the 1st day of school. I only did so on the 2nd March though… ‘Sides I didn’t even think I could have the chance to write about this and hand it up to my teacher, but now I’m looking at the graded essay on my lap… with a nice 32/50 on it. Oh and by the way, it’s in Chinese.

《我喜欢的一首歌》

  我很少听华语歌曲，主要原因大概是因为我从小就开始日本动画，而觉得日本歌曲的含义比华语或英语歌曲来得深。当中就有一首摇滚乐曲让我留下了深刻的印象。

  歌名从日语翻译到华语是《红莲》，主唱、作曲、作词是日本摇滚乐团the GazettE一手包办。名气虽然比不上日本流行歌后宾崎步，但他们的歌曲是粉丝们一直以来的支持的原因之一。而我是受到朋友的影响而开始听这个乐团的歌。

  歌词写的是某人失去了身边一位非常重要的人之后所感到的痛苦及悲伤。歌词也透露出不舍和后悔。MV里侧加强了歌词的感受，让许多观众和听众为这首让人心酸的歌流下泪。

有个朋友告诉我，这首歌的含义可以从MV当中找出。他说，MV里出现的红房、水龙头和穿着分别红和白色连身裙的小女孩代表着（照顺序）女人的子宫、男人的阴茎、活着和死去的胎儿。一边看MV，一边以这四样关键物来解读MV后的故事，就知道是一位母亲因为失去了未生出的小宝宝而经历的心痛。

  我喜欢这首歌是因为我可以站在那位母亲的角度感受到她的感受。我可没有经历过母亲失去孩子的痛苦，单就凭这首歌使我为她感到伤心。还记得我第一次听到这首歌时，是因为它那不是很沉重的曲子给吸引住了。那时侯我还不了解它的含义，但曲子和略带优怨的歌声让我听出这是一首非常悲伤的歌。

  在我们这一生中，想必大家都不想能够亲身体会到这首歌的一切，但这首《红莲》却做到了，令我非常佩服。可以的话，不仿在网上听这首好歌。

And to answer the last line, here’s the song, once again.

http://www.veoh.com/videos/v3306045WdsPBq6s [PV]

http://www.4shared.com/file/39053520/a44540b2/the_GazettE_-_Guren.html [MP3 + Download]

I’m so sorry, but I feel like doing this… please don’t get offended for I am not laughing at the song, but at my essay… 哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈……